Wednesday, December 19, 2018

AWOL well I was...

I really wasn't absent at all. Just had some things happen.

Rich spent 24 hrs in CCU and then 4 days on the Cardio Pulmonary unit in a hospital. We had quite a scare. 
Acute Pulmonary Emboli. Note the 'i' on the end of Pulmonary. He had multiple blood clots in both lungs.

Well suffice to say that it was dangerous for him and extremely painful.

I spent 5 days sitting in one hospital room or another. I cannot believe how tiring it is to sit there and wait for a doctor's update.

He is back home now and can move about with Oxygen. He is on blood thinners. He may be on them for just 3 months, and the oxygen depends on how his lungs recover or how much damage the lungs received from the clots.

So that has been my past week. It is a real struggle to stay positive when you see your loved one seem to struggle with each effort, each breath, and each motion he takes.
Just a conversation at this point can wear him out. 

I see him losing interest in life in general. He does perk up a bit at the chance to have a visitor. 
My youngest son and his wife and kids are coming to visit this weekend. He is looking forward to that and at the same time he says he won't be good company.

I told him that we all understand that perfectly and have no problem with him going to lay down or not wanting to engage a lot with everyone.

I laid out a plan to keep everyone busy with out door activities to keep the craziness inside the house to a minimum.

This event was a major blow to his health and I keep hoping that he can have some better days instead of struggling each day.

As I was driving home one evening, this came on the radio from my playlist on my mp3 player...
and I had to pull over...and take a few deep breaths...

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard, at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh, beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins

And maybe empty
Oh, and weightless, and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
Angel ~ by Sarah Mclachlan

Morning sunrise on the ridge with
Eagles flying over


  1. Those emboli are so scary. It may take some time for the clots to dissolve, we were told six months. And that is when he had another scan and all was well. Not sure what causes them....I hate hospitals too. I hope things improve just a little bit everyday. Thinking of you. :)

    1. Thank you. We haven't actually been given much of a time line but I imagine each case is different.

  2. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

  3. Anonymous6:35 PM

    I hope you can find peace tonight! Sitting and waiting is exhausting! Wishing you some rest and an enjoyable time outside with your company.

    1. Well I went to be early and decided to sleep in until after 5:30! Whew and boy did I sleep!