I've often debated on whether or not to write about this in my blog.
Contrary to some wives, I knew or thought I knew what I was getting into when I married a veteran with PTSD.
I was going to write about it on Veteran's Day...but after listening to a radio program on Wisconsin NPR, I decided to mull it over and then write my piece.
The person interviewed had written a book called Lethal Warriors: When the New Band of Brothers Came Home by David Philipps.
I listened to the radio interview on my drive home from work...and thought
My God, this man has absolutely no idea!
Frustrated, I came home and logged on to Joy Cardin's Facebook account and was going to ask her to ask her guest if he knew what PTSD really was, what it really entailed...what it was like to live with each and every day.
I didn't though.
There is a lot of information out there about PTSD, its diagnosis, prognosis, and treatment. But there is not very much written about living with it daily.
In fact it seems to be a very 'not much discussed' topic.
Imagine if you will, living with a person who appears absolutely normal, sounds normal, looks pretty healthy; a person who acts mostly responsible yet that same person is...
like living with a person who suffers severe depression, has A.D.D., Bi-Polar Disorder, Anxiety Issues...the list goes on.
It is a quiet issue. Only the really bad things make the news. The rages of killings, the suicides...but not the feelings that the veteran has of isolation. He/she hardly wants to make it public that they suffer from PTSD.
I've told others that my husband is a veteran who has PTSD.
*Why that war was 40 years ago, why doesn't he get over it?*
People look at you as though you have two heads and wonder why in the heck are you putting yourself through a relationship that tough.
Perhaps they don't know, and I try to explain...is that yes it can be trying at times. But the good times outweigh the bad.
Through adversity one can grow. Together we can help each other. I can help him feel mostly whole.
...and that is why I live with PTSD.