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I will admit that is has been a tough week with a few changes here and there. Mostly changes in my not so routine routines.

I fell asleep one night sitting up with hubby watching a Britbox program we both enjoyed called Death in Paradise.

As soon as I did go to bed, I was wide awake for most of the night. I tried reading, I tried writing in my paper journal [do people do that any more?]. Then I sat up on the bed and looked out the window.

The Fireflies were out but not in great number. I decided to go out and see if I could take a few shots of them.

 The Fireflies put on a show for me right away in the above shot I took in the driveway. Then they stopped. Maybe they were shy or maybe I scared them. Not really, but in order to see more, I would have had to walk up to the ridge or out to a pasture.

I didn't. Instead I sat down on the driveway and just watched what I could see of the stars and the Fireflies in the distance. I noticed the sky lit up from a distant thunderstorm. Eventually the sharp gravel irritated my bum so I got up and went back inside. By 2am, I actually fell asleep and the other half awakened me at 4am.

There are constantly things of beauty around me to keep me amazed. The peonies this year were exceptional. I had one huge bush that just produced and produced the most beautiful flowers. I simply couldn't get enough of them.

I picked buds and set them in glass bowls in the house to open up. The amazing thing is that they lasted nearly a week indoors.

There is a photographer on Flickr that shoots abstract shots of peonies, so I grabbed my Lensbaby and tried a few shots myself.

Not stellar, but it was a fun little experiment. I'm still trying to learn how to really do an amazing job of flower photos with the Lensbaby. I'm studying those photographers who do this professionally. I like a challenge and this lens is a challenge.

I'm sort of digging the abstract-iv-ness from the lens in a way.

Play.

I'd left some Legos out on the table last Friday when our friend Steve stopped by with his daughter, her hubby and their daughter. The daughter had a great time playing with the Legos on the table.

I miss my 'play' time and creative time where I can wander off with a backpack and some ideas. Or sort out my Princess Sara stuff and continue with her story...it is just itching to happen.

I started to create a little scene on the table last night after we had cereal for supper. [I was exhausted physically and mentally and wasn't hungry at all.]

Rich watched as I moved the minifigs around. He asked who was who...I do have a tenancy to give them names and create minifigs as people I know.

I pulled up a photo that I did last week and gave him my minfig rundown...

These are our helpers. To the left with the red headband is Shay, our Respite Gal. She looks different than the minifig, but her spirit IS very swashbuckling, so it fits that she is a female pirate.

Next is a visiting nurse. How surprising it is that out of 5 of the nurses we've seen, 4 have been male.

The wheelchair minifig is Rich. But I've changed his 'clothes' since I took that shot.

The guy with the fish is Steve. Why not? He really looks like Steve!

Next is the Chaplain and the Social worker we see. 

I posted this on IG and labeled it as our support team.

Rich watched me arrange and arrange the Legos on the table and finally said. 

You need more that time. [remember he has aphasia]

What?

You need more time to ... his hands flutter... You know... to do that and not be so busy.

He may have a lot of health issues, but he still is pretty perceptive. 

I grabbed my camera and Rich looked at what I'd created. 

I kept messing around with the figures until I had a small scene. I guess what I was doing was fidgeting. Fidgeting relieves stress and calms the mind.

Figuring out how to photograph something on the table just for fun was relaxing.

I came to a conclusion which was very hard for me. I love going to the gym and my gym friends. But I hate the scheduling as I can't seem to fill the times properly and I don't seem to get real 'respite' out of it.

I'm pausing the gym stuff for now.

So this morning when Shay gets here, I'll take Charlie and go for a morning walk before it is too hot. I'll adventure, I'll look for fungi, I'll take some minifigs with me. I'll breath the warm humid air and find myself and perhaps get smacked with some creative juices.

Then I'll go to town and get groceries and pick up meds. Boring but a necessity.

Wednesday is another Steve-Fishing-something-adventure day. So I have to organize Oxygen tanks, snacks, and whatnot.

I do feel a bit of guilt making me time. But I am realizing that if I don't ... well, they be picking me up for the Loonie Bin.